Battery Operated Pancreas

Just another day in the life of a diabetic…

What’s your scary number?

Since participating in the 2nd Annual D-Blog week, I’ve been a little busy and decided to take a short break from posting. Since today is a rainy Monday, I figured it was a good day to start posting again:)

There are times when you know you’re low, you test and it’s confirmed. There are other times when people ask: “Are you low??” You test, and once again, it’s confirmed. But what is low? 60? 50? 40? 30? Well, duh, yes all those numbers are considered “low” but what I’m asking is which number puts the fear of God into you when you see it? For me its anything that starts with a thirty-something. I’m not sure why, but even 39 strikes a certain fear in me. Just last week I woke up from a sound sleep drenched in sweat. Lovely, right? I said to myself “something’s not right” and immediately reached for the meter. Sure enough: I was 38. It freaked me out. I’m not sure why. What’s SO different between 38 and 40? 40 doesn’t freak me out. I think it’s a mind game, really. Anyway, I proceeded to eat way too many Skittles and went back to sleep. Upon waking I was 380-something. Ugh. Over corrected, again. Why do I do this to myself? Is it the impending doom I feel when I go that low? The “I don’t want to die” feeling I get? Who knows. But it sucks. What’s worse is when my boyfriend has a thirty something low. Again, it freaks me out. So much so that I retrace where I last saw the glucagon as a “just in case” measure. As the ad says “you may not need it but you’ll be glad it’s there”  So I reach out to my D friends out there…what’s a scary low for you? Is it a number? Or is it when you’re unable to function? Or when you know what has to be done, but your body isn’t doing what your brain is telling it to? Maybe its none of these. It could be a high number, which I personally just dread rather than fear. I invite you to share ….

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